The perks of being a wallflower

I've just watched this movie , and there's a quote that really catched my attention ... We accept the love we think we deserve . That is seriously the truest and significant quote I heard in a movie for a long time. This quotes goes straight to my heart because it's a universal fact that we all experienced once in our lifetime or we still are experiencing it . In my case , this is exactly my love story . Whenever I feel sad or worthless for absolutely no reason in my life , it shows in my relationship or the people I encounter . But most of the time, I feel like I don't deserve to be love fully by someone , because I can't give them the same amount of love and I sometime settle for less than I'm worth . I let people take advantage of me and treat me like they want simply because I think that if I get better I will just fuck it up , like the rest of my life. It's sad but it's the ugly truth . I can't seem to accept the fact that someone might like me for who I am , I feel like everyone always wants something out of life , they don't seem to give love free anymore there's always that extra baggage hanging in the air. I'm always saying I won't settle for less anymore , but I always find myself in the same situation , with a guy that just can't seem to fully commit and I'm always sticking around not like a lover rather playing the role of a mistress. I think we all deserve to be happy in love starting by me , but I just can't seem to find the way . We all deserve better than what we are dealing with right now , we all know we can do better and be better but it never seems to happen for none of us.

What has this world come to...

This is exactly what I've been telling myself ever since forever , if that makes any sense. This world we live in  is turning upside down , it keeps getting crazier and harder to live in . We adore the ones that hurt us , we disappoint the ones that care about us , we hurt the one that love us . We are being lied to by the government everyday , yet again we don't take action , we let them rule us like puppets . We have anger in our hearts and hate in our veins , all we seem to see is everything and nothing. We have lost faith in humanity , and even worst we have come to the point of losing our own humanity . We accept cruelty in our everyday life, we welcome war as a guest , we pity misery but no one is raising a finger . We buy stuff we don't need , marry people we don't love , have friends we don't like , have a job we don't want , we complicate everything and then we have the guts to say that life is hard or unfair. But there are kids out there that can't even buy food , people that don't even have shelters , we have people canned like sardines in our hospitals , kids living on the streets . The problem is we talk about it , but there seems to be no change. We're sitting in our living room and asking why isn't somebody doing something about it , but Hey you are somebody why don't you do something about it . Don't wait up, just one action a day can make so much difference in someone Else's life. Start today , give what you don't need , help a stranger in need , smile to a sick child ...

One self...

Peace shall bring you home

   




 

This weekend shall be wonderful

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I think that if you want to live an happy life you have to find something that is worth fighting or to an extant die for . You have to find a passion or something that keeps you truly alive. For some people they find their way in music , others in arts or anything . I'm one of those people that haven't figured it out yet , I'm always changing my mind about what I really want or need and I think that's fine . You have to try and fail to truly know what you can really do. But thinking about it , I think that witting is my passion , I think there's something more about words that just gets to my heart right away, the feeling that words can actually make you feel better or that your alive in this world . Words can make you feel like your the only person in the world ; words understand how you feel ; words are always there , it never leaves and I think that's wonderful. Because words is one thing that you can always count on , when your day isn't going that great or you just feel empty ( like me most of the time ) , just a couple of words can make the whole difference. There's something about words that make you feel like your not alone , that your not that misunderstood . There's words for every occasion , you can never ran out of words , you can never get tired or be disappointed in words , they never leave you like most people would. .. Words can never fail you...

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It's just me all flesh and bones at 11:42 pm , tonight is just one of those nights where I'm pouring myself out on this computer screen , writing anything or everything that could make me famous someday , hey we never know some publisher might end up on my blog and be like this girl has something in her writing , it's powerful and deep let's give her a shot to write a novel or something hahahahaha. Lately there's something that's been bothering me , mixed signals ... especially from the opposite sex . Why do we always have to make life so much more complicated then it already is . If you want someone , you should truly let them know , why play all this non sense games of playing hard to get or w.e. It just doesn't make sense in my mind , I won't lie I've done it in my teenage years but now looking back I wonder why I did . Telling someone that you want them  sexually or to be in a relationship is not that difficult , you only have two options a yes or a no there's no in between , so I wonder why does it have to be all this cycle of games before admitting it .

11;30

I'm a hopeless romantic , what more can I say. I truly don't believe in love or all that dedicating your life to someone forever . This idea seems absurd to me due to the fact that how can you fall in love with someone specific when there are millions of other people around the world that you could have fallen in love with but can't , simply because you don't know them (confused face)...  Yet again I hope that I someday experience that feeling , because what is life if you haven't love or been loved .I think that each person living has a soul mate somewhere and the sad part is ,not everyone find them and they spend the rest of their life unhappy alone or with the wrong person . And I think that's why I'm so scared of the word LOVE , because if your not careful enough it will only bring disappointment and pain. And the thing is you can never be too careful because with love anything can happen it's sort of a bittersweet game. I never truly get attached with anyone , not because I don't want to but because I don't know how . I've been so used to being unattached or building gates or walls around myself and keeping people at a certain distance , that I'm not even sure I can love someone properly or even let someone love me; I'm the type of person that when things get a little too personal and the thrill of seduction is over , I'm the first to leave without even an explanation, I've always been the girl that says goodbye but never knows how to properly leave.The thing is , I like being lonely , I think being lonely is healthy for you , It helps you discover who you truly are and love yourself even more because if you can't love yourself first , who will ? At the end of the day you only have yourself you can count on to be truly happy. I've been seeing a lot of quotes lately about how the loneliest people are the one who suffers the most and I don't think that's true at all , I think that the loneliest people on earth are the strongest , they are the one that can suffer in silence but yet again have a smile on their face like everything is fine. The loneliest people can face anything and overcome any obstacle because they know that they are born alone and they must likely die alone , that's why they don't get their hopes on anyone . They go through life like that and for me that is the strongest a human can be...