broken soul

I don't feel depressed or anything
I just feel so lost in my own head
I feel so lonely surrounded by faces
I feel out of place where i want to be
I want to be surrounded by flowers
But I also want the emptiness , I like it
I feel empty inside
I can hear my bones cracking and my heart breaking for no reason at all
I feel broken like I'm standing together bent with stitches
Days like this , I just feel sad about me and everyone
I don't even feel like getting fixed or saved
I could stay like this forever and sleep
Until my very last breath
I don't feel like being anything else but still
No noises, no one..
Is it even normal to feel like this at my age

N.S

Love yourself first

I think that happiness begin within yourself
You can never be truly happy if your not satisfied with who you are
Even if you're not , you've got to accept your flaws , we're all imperfect creatures
We have to accept that some may have it all, but that still doesn't mean that we've got nothing
If we can achieve being happy with ourself , we can achieve anything in life
And I truly think that
You can't bring love to the world and others , if you can't have the same amount of love with yourself
You might be good at faking it . but somewhere along the line you'll come face to face with the person you really are
And at this moment all you can really do , is accept it and embrace it even if it's nothing near perfection

This might not be enough, but it's all I got

Sometimes I just don't have the words
At times I might come off as cold
Most of the times, I want too much
Other times, I don't know what I want
But in all of those times, all i'm really asking
Is for you to love me unconditionally
It's my cry for help