Waking up

If you we're too ask me 5 years from now looking back , what I would want to be when I grow up
I probably would have said being successful in any way possible .
But i've come to realize that this isn't the most important thing in life
My goal in life is just to be a good person
I want to live a life that I'm proud of
I just want to be good , do good and think good thoughts
I want to be the best I can be in my everyday life
I want to achieve things, make things happen
I want to be a role model among my friends, I want somebody to look at my life and be inspired
To be the change, to dare to be different and not be afraid
I want to be quoted some day
Maybe it's a phase or it might be the real deal

I'm afraid I can't believe ....

I want to believe that there are people out there with a mind of their own
I want to believe that there are greater things out there
I want to believe that there are people who believe in love
I want to believe that there are people who live for their passion
I want to believe that success is just a suitcase away
I want to believe that love is greater than hate
I want to believe that someday people can be good to each other
I want to believe in people and their words
I want to believe that people are still happy

how can someone hurt you so much , and you still love them
it's like your trying to fill something that isn't there
love is not suppose to hurt
love is suppose to be easy

hopeless...

I just hope that on the days that I can barely say a sentence that you love me
I hope that you learn to deal with my constant  mood swings
I hope that you appreciate the little things I notice
I hope that you can keep up with my urge to get away , I hope that you never let me go
I hope that you love me , beyond everything
I hope that someday looking back and thinking about us all I can feel is happiness
I hope that I won't ever have to look back , because you'll always be there
I just hope that this is not all a waste
I hope that there's many tomorrows in our story
I just hope that on the days when I feel empty , you can fill me up
I'm just hoping , don't disappoint me please...