yesterday was yesterday

The ultimate fuck was given yesterday to you and everybody else

I shall not care no more and that's a promise to myself and to you all

I'm moving forward in my life, alone and frankly this tought doesn't really

bother me no more. It might take me a while , it's a slow process

don't get me wrong, but I'm willing to do it and make it. I'm learning

day by day , I'm thinking more of myself than others. They shall not affect 

me anymore, they shall not hurt me anymore. I shall be happy

Please that's all I'm really asking. Just the tought of happiness will be enough.

No more clouds in my mind, no more rain. I'm just asking for a spring day or maybe

a breezy one , I don't know or maybe just maybe a sunny day.

Am I asking too much really...

a poem maybe , or not

It's sad isn't it when your ready and the other is not
Your heart is in it , until the end
But his heart already passed the finished line and he's ready to move on
I thought that this thing could have worked out
I had those fantasies about us
I was looking forward to tomorrow
You had my heart for some times now
But it's all fading away , just like your face
Your not in my dreams anymore
Your starting to feel like a memory to me
I don't like it , I hate it
I want to get it all back
Is it something I said
Or the words that were left unsaid
It might be my distant stare
I don't know, I don't care
I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to be that girl
Then again I want you to be that boy

you and me

I've got my own bullshit to deal with already, I mean I got enough shit to deal with
I don't need yours on top of that
If you feel insecure in your own life , and you don't feel safe
Don't try to sink us both please I beg you
I already seen too much already , heard it all
Don't play games  , just be true to me and yourself
This thing is going somewhere , maybe , I don't know
I'm not sure about anything anymore
You , me
This might be the end , and I think I'm ready

at 4;14 make a wish

I love the feeling when you're high
and your just at home , relaxing enjoying your day
maybe sleeping or watching some dumb cartoon
It's like for a second you don't care if the world might end tomorrow or maybe monday
You just don't care

Mood swing

I just feel happy today , I don't know why . I feel that just maybe my life is getting back together someway and I'm just here smiling for no damn reason . Bitch don't kill my vibe is on replay on my phone and I'm feeling every damn word of that song . I don't need anyone in my life to make things better , I have to do it by myself and it feels pretty good doing it . I think that I might even get a job , I'll even pray on it tonight . There's thunder outside and it's one of those nights that I just feel secure and safe , I don't know why and I don't care much . I just love this feeling that I'm having and there ain't nobody that he's gone take that away .


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GF8aaTu2kg0

Rated R

A women body is beautiful, and I have no shame whatsoever at showing it . I'm not a nudist or anything but I just feel so free in my body , I might not have the perfect arms, might be a bit too short , my boobs aren't that big or my waist isn't that small but hey I still love every little part of my imperfections that's what makes me who I am . I wouldn't trade my body for anything. Everyone should embrace their body , no matter what society is trying to portray as perfect . I read a quote once that changed my whole perspective '' You will never look like the girl in the magazine, the girl in the magazine doesn't even look like the girl in the magazine '' . And that's the truest thing I ever heard